[Newsletter] Signs, Shadows and Synchronistic Growth Signs, Shadows and Synchronistic Growth

I’m so pleased that in this newsletter Tiffany has chosen to write about the personal health journey she has been on over these past several weeks, and to do so in the context of a Mainstreet Mystics podcast on the topic of Signs.

Signs is one of my favorites among all of the Mainstreet Mystics podcasts, partly because our guests were so full of wisdom and so lively, but more so because the episode brings to light that Signs are all around us, that the Divine is constantly reaching out to us with needed information. We only need to pay attention, to listen, and act when inspiration motivates us.

[Tiff] I had a cyst burst on my ovary last week. Ouch! It felt like acid being dumped on my internal organs. This was a sign! A sign of having pushed my feminine rhythms to try and match the inharmonious (shadow) masculine doing & pushing world. Double Ouch!

I’ve been contemplating how many women I know personally, and historically in my practice, who are or have been the breadwinners and negotiated with our intrinsic nature (consciously and unconsciously) to stay in the game of life at the pace and price of our health and natural rhythms.

I’ve come to see this was me operating from the “shadow masculine.” The shadow masculine unconsciously puppeteers us motivated by unhealed & ancestral traumas. The shadow masculine, inner patriarchy, shadow king (take your pick of terms), keeps the push and urgency to do more, never satisfied, always striving from a highly mentalized place.

It is totally exhausting and unrewarding for the inner feminine to be involved, so when she sits out or takes a step back, then she’s deemed meek or weak or both. She’s been hushed and her wisdom put aside, and left to be (not so) patiently waiting our conscious arrival to the door of her grace. So I am course correcting. Amazingly my Female Self, Kassandra, has just been waiting for ME to wake-up to it all.

The balanced inner and divine feminine creates space before action, is collaborative, not competitive, and seeks eudemonic over hedonic pleasures. She asks, and does not assert. She has innate and unencumbered faith as she awaits our conscious return to bring balance and awareness to the same breath.

All of this has created big realizations for me - the unconscious is now conscious!
I became acutely aware that I’ve always had only an ON and OFF switch, with no balance in between. I seek to be a student of balance, to learn what she has to teach me. I am now watching for signs, synchronicities and further evidence of my unfolding – and they are literally everywhere, and I am SOOO grateful!